I think the best way to explain how I have felt for the last number of weeks is constantly carsick. Only somebody who gets motion sickness like I do will understand what I mean by that. Sometimes it has been better than others, but regardless, it has just kinda been constant all day long. I know it could be worse, I haven't thrown up. But it still hasn't been easy.
When I think back to these last few months, I have had a lot of food aversions. Greek yogurt, cucumber/dill dip (eek!!) are at the top. But the craziest of all....I haven't been able to stomach CHIPOTLE! I could eat at Chipotle almost every day if I wanted to before this pregnancy. Now I can't even really look at it. It is the WEIRDEST thing!
Foods I have craved: 5 Guys hamburgers, nectarines, cold peaches, salads with herb dressing, grapefruit, grapefruit juice, Hawaiian pizza, hot chicken sandwiches with pepperchinis, and toast. One day only I craved pickles. Another day I craved teriyaki chicken and rice. It is the craziest thing to try to explain to somebody how your body reacts to the thought of foods while pregnant! I am normally very self controlled with what I eat. But these days who knows what I will be able to stomach or not!
My house, well, it isn't so clean and tidy right now. The moment I get home from work, I just want to crash and take a nap. I normally am not a napper at all. Until recently. I love naps these days!
Caleb has been so helpful. He regularly loads and unloads the dishwasher. And he also regularly seems to be going to the store to pick up some random thing I am craving. He is taking care of me (and little Baby). He is such a good husband, and will be such a great dad!
Something that I was not prepared for was how crazy and vivid my dreams are. They are so clear and detailed, and they just feel so real. In fact, this morning Caleb came in to wake me up. I almost said to him, "One sec, let me finish up this phone call..." cause I was dreaming I was on the phone with somebody I know! Also, the night before, I had a dream that my face was utterly deformed. It's pretty crazy.
I have asked a couple friends if they found there were worse at driving when they were pregnant....they said "no". However, for me, I don't know if it is the nausea, exhaustion, or less oxygen to my brain....but I have found that I am not as good at driving as I normally am. When I say I am not feeling well, Caleb now says, "Well, drive safe! Be careful."
Another thing about this pregnancy.....I can't listen to or sing worship songs without getting teary! Maybe its just the hormones. Maybe I am just so thankful. Or tired. But worship songs have got to me! God is just so good. And He is so real and near. I love Him.
All to say, I am hoping what they say is true....that with the second trimester comes feeling energetic and "yourself" again.
In the meantime, we are so excited our little one is growing. It is quite the miracle. Caleb has been talking to him or her and this morning was even singing to it. I keep thinking I am showing, until everybody around me tells me I am not. hahaha!
So this Monday I will be 12 weeks. I can hardly believe it. How are we going to wait another two months to find out if it is a boy or girl!?!?! I have to add that 95% of people think it is a boy. Maybe two or three people have said girl. Multiple people (my dad, sister, and brother-in-law) all call it "him" on accident. I keep saying she is going to have identity issues if it is a girl. We will see!
Regardless, we are just thankful. Boy or girl, it doesn't matter. We are just praying for a healthy baby.
We are blessed. And we are oh so excited!!!.....
Saturday, August 18, 2012
Monday, August 13, 2012
First Day at the New Job
I feel like it was the first day of school today...although that won't come until the first week in September. But this morning we just got Caleb off for his first day at his new job. Although his previous job was very good to him during the last year, we are on to a new and exciting opportunity ahead of us!
Caleb is now the Director of Security at a local school district about 20 miles from where we are at. He is also the head Freshman football coach. When I step back to think about it, it is such a perfect job for him. The main reason is that he will be able to impact the lives of the kids he works with. I couldn't think of anybody better to do that!
So today is a day of meetings with the football coaches, the superintendent, and a board meeting later tonight. I may go down there and help him set up his office in between and bring him lunch. The next couple weeks will be training for the security job and doing more of the coaching aspect of his job. Then, come Sept 6th, school will be in session!
This job really came at such a wonderful time. He will have a school schedule for the most part (ie, Christmas' off, summers, etc....and spring break is only a couple weeks after my due date!). God is taking care of us. And we are trusting that He is going to continue to as we embark on this new endeavor.
So we are praying that Caleb is able to be a sponge and soak up all the info that he needs, that he will have wisdom and discernment to be able to do his job well, that he is will have eyes to see what is really going on with the kids and know how to love and help them, and that his health will continue to improve daily so he can do his job well. All of these things we are dependent on God for. And we know He is faithful.
On a side note, it was so fun to see my handsome husband all dressed up for work. He has been wearing shorts and a t-shirt to work the last couple years. This morning he looked so sharp and handsome. We prayed together before he took off. And as he walked away I was just so proud of who he is.
I got a good one. :)
Caleb is now the Director of Security at a local school district about 20 miles from where we are at. He is also the head Freshman football coach. When I step back to think about it, it is such a perfect job for him. The main reason is that he will be able to impact the lives of the kids he works with. I couldn't think of anybody better to do that!
So today is a day of meetings with the football coaches, the superintendent, and a board meeting later tonight. I may go down there and help him set up his office in between and bring him lunch. The next couple weeks will be training for the security job and doing more of the coaching aspect of his job. Then, come Sept 6th, school will be in session!
This job really came at such a wonderful time. He will have a school schedule for the most part (ie, Christmas' off, summers, etc....and spring break is only a couple weeks after my due date!). God is taking care of us. And we are trusting that He is going to continue to as we embark on this new endeavor.
So we are praying that Caleb is able to be a sponge and soak up all the info that he needs, that he will have wisdom and discernment to be able to do his job well, that he is will have eyes to see what is really going on with the kids and know how to love and help them, and that his health will continue to improve daily so he can do his job well. All of these things we are dependent on God for. And we know He is faithful.
On a side note, it was so fun to see my handsome husband all dressed up for work. He has been wearing shorts and a t-shirt to work the last couple years. This morning he looked so sharp and handsome. We prayed together before he took off. And as he walked away I was just so proud of who he is.
I got a good one. :)
Thursday, August 2, 2012
Our Family's Time of Blessing
I sit here as Caleb works late tonight and try to collect my thoughts. How do I put words to the emotions I am feeling right now? They are so important that I just want to have them documented.
The last 24 hours for our family have been priceless, so precious and personal, that there just don't seem to be words to express them.
Yesterday at 4:45 we walked into the doctor's office, and about 15 minutes later we got to see our new little baby for the very first time! It took our breath away, and we are soooo in love. As Caleb held my hand, he said, "Wow! Look at him (and I interrupted and said "or her") move!" The doctor commented on how much of a mover and shaker this baby was...oh my, I wonder if that is an indicator of our future! haha! And she said the heartbeat was great and strong. She said although I am only 9 &1/2 weeks, that she is confident I have less than 5% chance of miscarriage. So we are telling people a little early, before I am fully done with my first trimester! The due date is March 4th.
Then, after the ultrasound, Caleb gave me a kiss and jetted out for a final interview as I finished up the doctors appointment. We have really been praying for this job cause it would free us up so much financially as we prepare to add to our little family. Well, today at about 2:00, Caleb got the call that he was offered the job and he accepted!
Every single thing about all that is happening in our family is 100% completely from the hand of God Himself!
To think where we were just six months ago to today, is unbelievable.
From where Caleb's health was...to now his thriving body and me carrying life in my own! To him getting a job that he is not as qualified for as the other people he was up against (although it is the perfect job for him, and I am so confident that he will excel at it)....it is all just a miracle!
I feel like our season of joy has come. I called my sister crying tonight (both of joy and the hormones I am sure hahaha) just saying how amazed I am. Humbled. Awestruck.
The crazy part. When I think back to this last year, I am thankful. I am thankful because of how it strengthened Caleb and my relationship...it made us bonded together in a profound way. I saw God provide, when we had no resources ourselves. I saw God heal my husband...it is a miracle he still has feet...and they even said it could take his life. To see how his body is thriving now and how incredibly he has come back...I know it has been God who has healed. And it has made me deeply appreciate these blessings He is now giving us. What a contrast!
But God has been the same through it all. He has been good, He is good, and He will always remain good.
So we are going into a season of blessings. But we are blessed so we can be a blessing. We want to bless those in our lives. And we want to bless this little one with a home where their parents love them, each other, and most importantly Jesus.
God has given us, on loan, this little life...ahhhh...how amazing is that?!!? We will need His help as we do our best to raise them. But how cool of God to give us a little reminder right off the bat that He is the one whose baby it really is! He is providing us with a means to provide for the baby, who He loves so much. How amazing that He trusts Caleb and I with it!
My heart is full. Tears are flowing. Worship is rising.
I am just thankful. Simply thankful.
The last 24 hours for our family have been priceless, so precious and personal, that there just don't seem to be words to express them.
Yesterday at 4:45 we walked into the doctor's office, and about 15 minutes later we got to see our new little baby for the very first time! It took our breath away, and we are soooo in love. As Caleb held my hand, he said, "Wow! Look at him (and I interrupted and said "or her") move!" The doctor commented on how much of a mover and shaker this baby was...oh my, I wonder if that is an indicator of our future! haha! And she said the heartbeat was great and strong. She said although I am only 9 &1/2 weeks, that she is confident I have less than 5% chance of miscarriage. So we are telling people a little early, before I am fully done with my first trimester! The due date is March 4th.
Then, after the ultrasound, Caleb gave me a kiss and jetted out for a final interview as I finished up the doctors appointment. We have really been praying for this job cause it would free us up so much financially as we prepare to add to our little family. Well, today at about 2:00, Caleb got the call that he was offered the job and he accepted!
Every single thing about all that is happening in our family is 100% completely from the hand of God Himself!
To think where we were just six months ago to today, is unbelievable.
From where Caleb's health was...to now his thriving body and me carrying life in my own! To him getting a job that he is not as qualified for as the other people he was up against (although it is the perfect job for him, and I am so confident that he will excel at it)....it is all just a miracle!
I feel like our season of joy has come. I called my sister crying tonight (both of joy and the hormones I am sure hahaha) just saying how amazed I am. Humbled. Awestruck.
The crazy part. When I think back to this last year, I am thankful. I am thankful because of how it strengthened Caleb and my relationship...it made us bonded together in a profound way. I saw God provide, when we had no resources ourselves. I saw God heal my husband...it is a miracle he still has feet...and they even said it could take his life. To see how his body is thriving now and how incredibly he has come back...I know it has been God who has healed. And it has made me deeply appreciate these blessings He is now giving us. What a contrast!
But God has been the same through it all. He has been good, He is good, and He will always remain good.
So we are going into a season of blessings. But we are blessed so we can be a blessing. We want to bless those in our lives. And we want to bless this little one with a home where their parents love them, each other, and most importantly Jesus.
God has given us, on loan, this little life...ahhhh...how amazing is that?!!? We will need His help as we do our best to raise them. But how cool of God to give us a little reminder right off the bat that He is the one whose baby it really is! He is providing us with a means to provide for the baby, who He loves so much. How amazing that He trusts Caleb and I with it!
My heart is full. Tears are flowing. Worship is rising.
I am just thankful. Simply thankful.
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