First Trimester Memories

I think the best way to explain how I have felt for the last number of weeks is constantly carsick.  Only somebody who gets motion sickness like I do will understand what I mean by that.  Sometimes it has been better than others, but regardless, it has just kinda been constant all day long.  I know it could be worse, I haven't thrown up.  But it still hasn't been easy.

When I think back to these last few months, I have had a lot of food aversions.  Greek yogurt, cucumber/dill dip (eek!!) are at the top.  But the craziest of all....I haven't been able to stomach CHIPOTLE!  I could eat at Chipotle almost every day if I wanted to before this pregnancy.  Now I can't even really look at it.  It is the WEIRDEST thing!

Foods I have craved:  5 Guys hamburgers, nectarines, cold peaches, salads with herb dressing, grapefruit, grapefruit juice, Hawaiian pizza, hot chicken sandwiches with pepperchinis, and toast.  One day only I craved pickles.  Another day I craved teriyaki chicken and rice.  It is the craziest thing to try to explain to somebody how your body reacts to the thought of foods while pregnant!  I am normally very self controlled with what I eat.  But these days who knows what I will be able to stomach or not!

My house, well, it isn't so clean and tidy right now.  The moment I get home from work, I just want to crash and take a nap.  I normally am not a napper at all.  Until recently.  I love naps these days!

Caleb has been so helpful.  He regularly loads and unloads the dishwasher.  And he also regularly seems to be going to the store to pick up some random thing I am craving.  He is taking care of me (and little Baby).  He is such a good husband, and will be such a great dad!

Something that I was not prepared for was how crazy and vivid my dreams are.  They are so clear and detailed, and they just feel so real.  In fact, this morning Caleb came in to wake me up.  I almost said to him, "One sec, let me finish up this phone call..." cause I was dreaming I was on the phone with somebody I know!  Also, the night before, I had a dream that my face was utterly deformed.  It's pretty crazy.

I have asked a couple friends if they found there were worse at driving when they were pregnant....they said "no".  However, for me, I don't know if it is the nausea, exhaustion, or less oxygen to my brain....but I have found that I am not as good at driving as I normally am.   When I say I am not feeling well, Caleb now says, "Well, drive safe! Be careful."

Another thing about this pregnancy.....I can't listen to or sing worship songs without getting teary!  Maybe its just the hormones.  Maybe I am just so thankful.  Or tired.  But worship songs have got to me!  God is just so good.  And He is so real and near.  I love Him.

All to say, I am hoping what they say is true....that with the second trimester comes feeling energetic and "yourself" again.

In the meantime, we are so excited our little one is growing.  It is quite the miracle.  Caleb has been talking to him or her and this morning was even singing to it.  I keep thinking I am showing, until everybody around me tells me I am not.  hahaha!

So this Monday I will be 12 weeks.  I can hardly believe it.  How are we going to wait another two months to find out if it is a boy or girl!?!?!  I have to add that 95% of people think it is a boy.  Maybe two or three people have said girl.  Multiple people (my dad, sister, and brother-in-law) all call it "him" on accident.  I keep saying she is going to have identity issues if it is a girl.  We will see!

Regardless, we are just thankful.  Boy or girl, it doesn't matter.  We are just praying for a healthy baby.

We are blessed.  And we are oh so excited!!!.....