Laughter and Deep Thoughts

I really hope that I am not speaking too soon....but maybe, just maybe, the sickness I have felt with this pregnancy is starting to diminish.  I feel like the last three days or so days have been a little better than they have been.  Oh, I hope its true!  I am still as exhausted as ever.  Today, after work, I closed my eyes to take a short 15 or 20 minute nap...and didn't wake up until two hours later!  I think I needed it.

We have been busy.  Although I thought, as the school year started, that things were beginning to slow down, I was wrong.  Caleb has only been home before 9pm one night this week.  He is loving his new job, but he is definitely busy.  But it is only for a season.

So as he is off doing his security duties at a football game tonight, I am able to be home and organize the house and organize my thoughts.

There are so many things I want to remember as I go throughout my day as I experience being pregnant.

One funny thing that happened.  The night before last, Caleb looked at me with a huge smile on his face and said, "Oh look at you!  You are starting to look a little more pregnant!"  (I seemed to have "popped out" a little more quickly this week.)  I responded by spinning around and asking him, "Does my back side look pregnant?"  He proceeds to innocently tell me (ladies get this), "All of you just looks a little more pregnant."  I quickly spun around again and exclaimed, "My bum is NOT supposed to look pregnant!  Are you saying it has gotten big?!!?!"  And he was like, "Oh no, that is not what I meant.  I said you are looking a little pregnant.  Did you hear the word 'little'?!?!?"  hahaha!  Poor guy.  But if that weren't enough (haha),  later I asked him, "How big do you think I will get?"  (It was dark and I had a smile on my face that he couldn't see hahahaha!)  And he quickly responded by saying, "Oh no, no, no! I am NOT going to answer that question. That is a set up and I am not going there."   Smart man.  He learned his lesson.  LOL! :)  Awe, we have fun. :)

I am starting to get a little bigger and today I put it on my shopping list that I am going to need to get some belly bands.  That means I am going to truly start looking pregnant soon!  (Versus like I have eaten too much pizza, which I have. haha!)

And then a really cool thing I thought of the other day that I don't want to forget....

I was driving to work and I was singing a worship song about how God works everything together for our good and how His love for us never changes.  I was kinda getting teary-eyed singing it.  And then it struck me, although some internet sites say it may be a few weeks before my baby hears sounds, I bet they still do to some degree.  How cool is it that some of the first things that he or she hears is me worshiping the Lord.  It brought tears to my eyes even more.  And then I laughed to myself cause I thought it was also good that at this point they can't compare my voice to anybody else's either.  :)  (Lets just say I hope our baby gets Auntie Kate's vocal ability!)

I got thinking more tonight as I was cleaning.  Although my baby can't see anything going on right now, I am already teaching it so many things.  I was thinking how I want to teach it how much it is loved by God and Caleb and I.  And I want it to respect his or her dad like I do.  I want them to feel safe.  And I started to ask myself....have I been doing the things I can now to make sure those things happen to the best of my ability?  I thought back and thought, I don't think Caleb and I have raised our voices at each other a single time since I have been pregnant.  I hope that allows the baby to feel safe and start to respect.  And I began to be challenged...I think I need to start reading my Bible out loud so the baby can start hearing the Word of God.  I went and got out a children's Bible that our family used when we were little...that would be fun to read aloud too.  I am going to start praying for insight how I help the baby more, even in the womb.

I guess I am just realizing in a new way what a huge responsibility awaits Caleb and I!  Oh, I hope we are ready!  Only with God's help every step of the way, that's for sure!  One day at a time....